I have a gym membership I used to use daily. I loved it. I guess I need to call and have it frozen until I can get off the couch without feeling dizzy.
I haven't been able to do anything for weeks, really. Right now I'm too tired even to read. I get a thin feeling of accomplishment from playing World of Warcraft...that and reading are about all I can do. Unfortunately I need a new book at the moment and I'm too high level in WoW for the laptop I can use during the day until Andrew gets home. *sigh* (If this makes no sense to you it just means the game is to much for my computer to handle).
I mustered up the energy to do a little cleaning this morning, which was something. And I got dressed and did my hair. It may not sound like much, but right now it's a big accomplishment. It keeps me going a bit. Schwann order comes in today so we'll finally have food. I hope it's good...should make things easier. Started the higher dose of Topamax today too.
I went ahead and turned down a couple of requests to serve in the nursery at church this summer...I hated to do it but realistically a room full of squealing toddlers is a bad idea for me right now. I'm not even able to leave the house sometimes at all anyway. I feel more and more like I'm totally losing contact with people. Even the people I love seem to look at me skeptically when I say I can't leave the house or do this or that because of a migraine. I hate the looks they give me.
They don't understand, unless they get migraines, and chronic ones at that. Don't feel guilty about having to say no. There are plenty of healthy people who can say yes, and I'm sure you've fit in that category in the past and will in the future!
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